Dear G.J.P.,
Everyday, every moment that goes by I think of you. My brain tells me to give up, but my heart says I can't stop loving you. I spend all day dreaming of the moment you would call to say you feel the same way. As much as I try to pretend, the truth is, I can't stop loving you. I don't know how to stop.
I will cherish the moments we have spent together, from our very first kiss to our last. I miss the way you kiss me, the way you look at me and rub my face, I miss you calling me Ms. Maynard (because you know it gets on my nerves), I miss you missing me, I miss everything about you, I miss our phone conversations and the way we would spend hours talking about our countries and the way we grew up. But most of all I miss my best friend.
I will place the moments we've shared together in a time capsule and hide it in the most secret place of my heart. And maybe 20 years from now, if or when we meet again, maybe then we can both open the capsule together and be reminded of our wonderful friendship.
Gosh, my life stinks! I mean I finally meet the right guy and he's not available. I'm in love with you but I can't be with you.
I Cant Stop Loving You
But, I've got to tell you, for the first time in months I can finally smile because although you didn't say much the last time you called I knew you still cared.
You can keep on denying it, you can keep hiding from it, but trust me you are only lying to yourself. Everyday I ask myself why ... why do I feel this way? Why can't I stop loving you? Then it dawned on me ... you put voodoo on me! Just kidding.
Before I go I want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart, and like I've said many times before, I do not regret anything we've done. The only thing I regret is you telling me you love me because since then you have given me nothing but the cold shoulders.
Please don't be scared, I want nothing but your friendship, well ... I do want more but I am willing to settle. I am not trying to make you feel bad or push you further away. I am just trying to make you understand what's in my heart.
I love you with all my heart ... and I will always love you, G.J.P.
Love always,
Melissa
亲爱的g.j.p.，
每一天，每一刻，我想起你所去。我的大脑告诉我放弃，但是我的心说，我不能停止爱你。我每天都在幻想你会和我说你有同样的感觉。正如我试着假装，事实是，我不能停止爱你。我不知道如何停止。
我将珍惜我们共同度过的时刻，从我们的初吻到最后。我想念你吻我的方式，你看我的方式，擦我的脸，我想念你叫我梅纳德女士（因为你知道它在我心烦），我想念你想念我，我想念你的一切，我想念我们的电话交谈，我们将花费时间谈论我们的国家和我们长大。但我最想念我最好的朋友。
我会把这个时刻我们一起共享了一个时间囊，藏在我心中最秘密的地方。也许20年后，如果或当我们再次见面，也许我们可以打开胶囊在一起，提醒我们美好的友谊。
天啊，我的生活一团糟！我的意思是我遇到合适的人，他不可。我爱你但是我不能和你在一起。
我不能停止爱你
但是，我得告诉你，在起初的几个月里，我终于可以微笑因为你虽然没有多说你最后一次叫我知道你仍然关心。
你可以继续否认它，你可以把它，但我相信你是唯一对自己说谎。每天我问自己为什么…为什么我会有这样的感觉？为什么我不能停止爱你？后来我突然明白…你把我的巫术！只是开玩笑。
在我走之前我想让你知道，你将永远有一个特殊的地方在我的心里，就像我已经说过很多次，我不后悔我们已经做了。我唯一的遗憾是你告诉我你爱我，因为你只给我冰冷的肩膀。
请不要害怕，我只想你们的友谊，以及…我想我愿意定居。我不想让你感觉不好或推远。我只是想让你明白什么是我的心。
我从心底里爱着你。我会永远爱你，g.j.p.
永远的爱，
玛莉莎